A slight updateless update :)

This really isn't much of an "update" post as much as just really a snap shot into where my head has been over the last week...

Life has a way of throwing up roadblocks along the way and those who are close to me understand that over the last week my prep focus has half assed at best. Long story short, one of my puppies has been in and out of the hospital..even when at home she's needed pretty much 24/7 care so the last thing on my mind has been contest prep, it's just didn't fuckin matter..NOTHING mattered but her. As far as I'm concerned, her care is first and foremost, regardless of costs etc..Fuck this show.

My emotions were really all over the place...
I felt guilty for even attempting to go to the gym. Who the fuck cares??! It's not important. Of course, sitting at home staring at the walls or killing time in waiting rooms wasn't exactly productive either. Through all the craziness and nearly running myself ragged, I did keep my diet 100% on point and got to the gym when I could. My training/cardio was basically get the fuck in and get out ASAP, but I did it more than anything to attempt to give my mind a rest from all the stress.

With that said, I didn't "check in" this weekend. I let Joe know I was doing what needed to be done but my mind and heart weren't in it. So, no official check in on the scale or pics this weekend, just getting back into the swing of things. While my baby isn't out of the woods yet, she is definitely on the upswing so Mama has been getting more than 2hrs of sleep the last couple of nights :) As I said, I did keep my diet on point and really couldn't tell ya if I was hungry or not, I was too crazy to notice..the lone bright spot, I suppose lol In addition to the lack of sleep, I was also running on energy drinks. As if I wasn't already having a tough time getting my water in, I probably had 1 liter a day and that was a good day.

It was definitely an unwelcomed reality check to say the least. If my biggest problems are bitching about hating cardio or whining cause my ass is too fat...I am pretty fuckin lucky and let's be real, it's bodybuilding, it's not that serious.
And on that note, let's keep the crazy train rolling cause there's shit to do..........

15 Weeks Out:

Stats:

 5'4" (ok, slightly under)

160.8LBS (as per last wk)

Training:

Power/Mountain Dog

Diet:

45g Fat/215G Carbs/165g Protein
45g Fat/155G Carbs/165g Protein

1-1.5gal water (not even fuckin close)

Cardio:

2 35min Steady State/2 HIIT sessions

Supplementation:

Champion Nutrition's Multi-V, Omega 3 Fish Oil, Performance BCAA's, Liver Cleanse, Power Creatine, Power Glutamine, Pure Whey and ThermoGold

Glucosamine and probiotics

Shit feels REAL now....

Ok, it's official. I now feel like I'm "prepping"..

16 weeks out and the changes are occurring, both physically and mentally.


My check in went pretty well. There was FINALLY a slight drop on the scale this weekend. I'm down a little more than a pound which was awesome to see, even if I am still in the 160's (bigmutherfuckinsigh). I can tell my body is tightening up, I have more separation and vascularity than last week which is why the scale was still a bit surprising, I was expecting MORE of a drop based on what I see in the mirror. I'm kinda at that point where the changes aren't significant yet so I'm getting anxious and start worrying that I'm further behind than I thought etc..Fortunately, I was able to avoid taking progress pictures since I was getting to see Joe in person for the first time this season. I will take an in person evaluation over pictures ANYDAY!


On Sunday, I had my first posing practice of the season...
Even though I was excited to let Joe look me over in person, I damn near had a panic attack trying to find a pair of shorts that fit me! I haven't even attempted to get in shorts since maybe Sept so this was a fuckin event. Thankfully, I did manage to get into a pair, but dammit quads rubbing together is so uncomfortable. I'm lucky I didn't catch fire :(  Stripping down to shorts and a sports bra was not the highlight of my weekend but on a bright side, I look better that I thought which was comforting. Running through my poses, I could see my body responding, conditioning improving and could start to really SEE the whole picture if that makes sense.


Now, As far as practice itself went...ummm, I am REALLY out of shape. I'm talking sweaty, cramping and winded lol Posing is MUCH harder than people realize. It's not fun posing when you're fat, it pretty much fucking blows so I don't do any posing in the off season whatsoever cause who the fuck wants to see that?? I hit my quarter turns and mandatories with relative ease but holding them and making my transitions smooth need work. I'm also playing with some variations to improve my presentation. 16 weeks is plenty of time for some fine tuning, but I should probably get to work on that whole routine thing....


After seeing talking with the boss in person, he made some changes to my program. Now, being the sick fuck that I am..I'm excited! WTF?!? Yeah, I want to be lean THAT bad, that I'm all "yay, take my food!" Sounds good now, but I'm sure I'll be kicking myself shortly. My macros went from being consistent, to a bit of a carb cycle..without a really low day. He also bumped up my cardio a little bit too, so I'm looking forward to seeing how my body responds over the next week or so.

16 Weeks Out:

Stats:

 5'4" (ok, slightly under)

160.8LBS

Training:

Power/Mountain Dog

Diet:

45g Fat/215G Carbs/165g Protein
45g Fat/155G Carbs/165g Protein

1-1.5gal water

Cardio:

2 35min Steady State/2 HIIT sessions

Supplementation:

Champion Nutrition's Multi-V, Omega 3 Fish Oil, Performance BCAA's, Liver Cleanse, Power Creatine, Power Glutamine, Pure Whey and ThermoGold

Glucosamine and probiotics

The crazy is well underway....

17 Weeks sounds like forever, but given the work I've got ahead, the crazy is already running full throttle...

I'm already beginning to have those panicked "will I be ready??!" thoughts, since I'm not really progressing at the rate I'd like to see. Am I making progress? ABSOLUTELY. While there isn't much movement on the scale the shift in my physique is obviously taking place. The scale is fluctuating around 161-162lbs, but I do see an improvement in my progress pictures (as does Joe) and the physical markers...face, chest and waistline are all noticeably tighter/leaner. Another positive is that I'm beginning to feel like I'm "in shape"..Cardio is a bit easier, less rest between sets etc..One of the shitty things about carrying extra fat is how out of shape and sluggish I feel so this is a nice change of pace.

In other prep related tidbits...

*I am 99.9% sure I've found the music for my routine. It'll need some editing of course, thankfully I only need 60 seconds lol and then I will start working on putting something together. Unlike previous years, I have ZERO interest in even attempting to wing this shit. I'm looking into getting help of course cause I ain't got a clue how to even begin choreographing this shit. I know all my best poses, I can hit them all...but yeah, transitioning, making it flow...Coordination is NOT my forte!

*THE suit is in the works! Most girls get excited about purses and shoes..IDGAF about that shit, but a posing suit gets me alllll types of girlie. Suits are the biggest expense of competing and I kicked around the idea of borrowing or renting etc..but having a suit that is custom for your body (especially for WP since I need to actually MOVE in it) is important. Jodie Bruce, Fit Wear Designs will be creating something amazing for this season and I cannot wait to see what she comes up with.

Now, even though the boss sees a little progress he did still make some slight tweaks to my program..a little increase in cardio, but didn't touch my macros.
Works for me..I ain't afraid to bust my ass, but let's not touch my food...yet :)

17 Weeks Out:

Stats:

 5'4" (ok, slightly under)

161-162LBS (GRRR!)

Training:

Power/Mountain Dog

Diet:

45g Fat/225G Carbs/165g Protein

1-1.5gal water (Struggling!!!!)

Cardio:

2 Steady State/2 HIIT sessions

Supplementation:

Champion Nutrition's Multi-V, Omega 3 Fish Oil, Performance BCAA's, Liver Cleanse, Power Creatine, Power Glutamine, Pure Whey and ThermoGold

Glucosamine and probiotics

And here we go................

The meet marked the official end to my off season and with that the switch has been flipped. I've been "dieting" if you will for a few weeks, keeping things tight and dropping the slop. Now that the meet is over, my blog and my life lol are in locked in full contest prep mode tunnel vision. GIDDY UP BITCHES!!!


Now, the plan of action....

While I had my fun navigating my own off season, I don't play that crazy shit during contest prep..so, as of the first of the year, I put my physique back in the hands (and mind lol) of Joe Franco. We had 4 successful years together and I'm confident that 2014 will be no different. If there's anyone who understands my brand of crazy combined with my work ethic, it's him. Joe is handling both my diet/nutrition and cardio. As far as training goes, I'll be taking a page from my off season and running a mix of power and Mountain Dog. I love the intensity and I feel like my physique really transformed with this approach so I'm looking forward to utilizing it with a cutting diet...as opposed to eating everything not nailed down, hey..I was growing ((eyeroll))

I'll be tracking my progress weekly with the scale (shoot me!) and pictures. Both of which make me want to play in traffic. I hit the stage at 125lbs last summer, I'm sitting a good 35lbs (give or take) above that. Of course, WP is by height, so the actual NUMBER on the scale doesn't matter but I am hoping to come in harder and ideally at 130+lbs. Is that realistic? I have no fuckin clue but in my head it is lol I had a fantastic off season, how much of that equates to bigger/denser muscle...we will see. On a positive note, I am carrying this weight better than I ever have in the past so while I definitely have my work cut out for me, I do feel like I'm in a decent place.

As things sit now, I'm currently  (just under) 18wks out from Team Universe. I'm kicking around the idea of  a local show in either Philly or Jersey a couple weeks prior, so we'll see about that but the goal is to peak and bring my best package to Teaneck, NJ on July 4th.

And onto the goods....

18 Weeks Out:

Stats:

 5'4" (ok, slightly under lol)

161.2LBS (UGH!)

Training:

Power/Mountain Dog

Diet:

45g Fat/225G Carbs/165g Protein

1-1.5gal water (which has NOT been happening ugh)

Cardio:

1 Steady State/3 HIIT sessions

Supplementation:

Champion Nutrition's Multi-V, Omega 3 Fish Oil, Performance BCAA's, Liver Cleanse, Power Creatine, Power Glutamine, Pure Whey and ThermoGold

Glucosamine and probiotics