Sunday, June 30, 2013

5 Days Out!

Only 5 days til Team U!
Say what!?!?!! Really? Yes, really!

It's crazy to think that it's all finally come down to the wire..At times, it seems like I've been prepping/dieting FOREVER and I'm ready to get it done, but on the other hand, I still think I need more time! EEEK!

All the work is done at this point, I'm just cruising along. My weight is still dropping, I'm getting leaner every day...New veins, new striations..YIPPEEEE!!!!!!! I'm getting in the gym, hitting the step mill and getting a pump. I'm also putting in some solid posing time, doing a little fine tuning...And considering I've only got 5 days left, I figure it's a good time to start working on the whole routine thing WHOOPSIE! I'm currently checking in with my coach daily, which is probably a good thing considering I'm an over thinker on another level. Food, water, meal timing..2 day shows?!?! Peaking!?!! *bangs head* And that is why I have a coach...let HIM do the thinking and I'll just do what I'm told. I got nothing but admiration for all you people who do your own prep, I don't know HOW you keep your sanity. It's enough to make my head spin.

My least favorite part of the whole process is all the "beauty" shit the last week. UGH! Hair, nails, skin prep, shaving, blah, blah and blah!!! I am so NOT that girl..I would have much preferred to be sitting at home, snuggled with my dogs than at the hair salon today, making awkward small talk with the girl dying my hair lol At any rate, that is checked off the 'to-do' list...still got nails, shaving is underway and oh yeah, packing...haven't even started!

Overall, the number one thing I am asked is how I'm feeling right now....
I can pretty much sum that up with, if you name an emotion, I'm feeling it. Nervous, excited, anxious, calm, scared, confident...Yep, yep, yep! So, yes, I've got a lot of emotions going through my head but at the end of it all, I am happy with ME! I literally smile when running through my poses, I'm THAT happy...I am in the best shape of my life and no question, I will bring my best physique to the stage and honestly, I can't really ask for more than that.

So, here we go....5 days and counting, let's do this shit!!!!

Sunday, June 23, 2013

2 Weeks Out!

I have a lot of random thoughts going on in my head right now, so I apologize in advance for the babbling that is about to occur:
 
It's hard to believe that I'm down to the final 2 weeks (ahem, 12 days) until Team U....
This weekend I had another solid check in with my coach, the scale was down another full pound and my progress pics are consistently improving...It definitely put a little spring in my step. Now, while Noel is happy with my progress and where my physique is, it's time to step it up a notch and get this shit as LEAN as I can in the next 12 days. My shape is there, my muscles are still full and round but my lower body needs to get harder. So, after a quick chat today, he's made some tweaks to my diet and my cardio...He ain't playing and Imma do what needs to be done.

Random musings...
*Numbers are a fascinating little mystery to me. There is NO point in giving a fuck what you weigh or what size you wear. I am in the BEST shape of my life and that is ALL that counts. 

*Be careful what you wish for, you just may get it...I will never beg to do cardio EVER again, that shit blows!

*Yes, I am hungry..tummy rumbling hungry, but I'm not really obsessed with food like I have during previous preps. Would I love some dessert? Hello! Have we met? While I would live off junk food if I could, I'm not cruising for food porn like I used to..I'm not eye-fucking the bakery when food shopping or smelling things. IDK..it's a little weird to be honest.

*I suck at being a girl. Seriously. I got my hair cut last wkend, still have to get it dyed..I hate that shit, such a waste of time when I could be much more productive. Not to mention, the bitch cut too much off GRRRRR!

*Sleep? Not sure what that is anymore. 

*Lazy. I have taken it to another level..I'm normally a lazy person but over the last month or so, I've raised the bar. If it's not food prep or training related, it's not getting done. 

*I put on my suit again this weekend...I had a hard time estimating the size I would be carrying as I dieted down and now I'm a little worried it'll be too big. I still have my suit from last season as a back up but I do really love the new one, so I'm counting on my right hand chick to glue me in to that fucker no matter what!

*Ok, seriously...Can someone put together my routine?!?!?! I got nothing :/ 

  2 weeks out 
Training: 5 Day split, one body part a day, posing as well.
Diet: Low fats/Moderate carb/High protein; 2gal H2o (sometimes 3!)
Cardio: 20-30min step mill sessions (time varies depending on how many sessions I break it up into)
Supplementation: Champion Nutrition's Multi-V, Omega 3 Fish Oil, Performance BCAA's, ProFlex Advance Joint Support, Liver Cleanse, Muscle Nitro PM, Power Creatine, Power Glutamine, Pure Whey and my crack,ThermoGold (3x a day lol)
 
131.2 pounds and dropping...
Let's fuckin do this!!!!

 




Sunday, June 16, 2013

3 Weeks Out

 
 
Well, down to the final 3 weeks of my prep for Team U and things are coming together...
 
I checked in with my coach this weekend and had another drop on the scale, down almost 2lbs from last week :) I sent him my dreaded progress pics as well lol..Ok, I'll be nice to myself..There is definite improvement from last week, I'm getting tighter/leaner with each passing day, it seems. My main worry is my ass and hams..The booty is tight but it doest seem to wanna get lean! I hope it joins the party ASAP cause I have nightmares of being the chick on stage with a jiggly ass...Overall, Noel seems pleased with the way things are moving and there are no changes to my program as of now, just going to keep climing the step mill in hopes of finding shredded glutes at the top ;-)
 
Overall, this last week or so has been rough. Not so much prep, but in life..I really do wish I didn't have anything else to deal with, I'd be much more stress free. I'm going to just keep my focus, tunnel vision for the next 3 weeks and deal with the bullshit later. When it comes to my prep worries, stress etc..the mind games are a-plenty right now. I have certain standards and expectations and I was beginning to really get down on myself that I wouldn't be able to bring the package that I want to the stage..Ok, maybe I won't live up to the image that I have concocted in the crazy circus that is my head but I can confidently say, without fail that I will be MY very best yet..I've made leaps and bounds of progress in switching divisions and this is far from a "finish line"...hell, I'm always working towards beating my best and improving along the way, in my mind, there is no true finish line.
 
And I'll wrap up my babbling by answering the most popular questions:
 
"How are you feeling?"...
That is a loaded question and my answer will vary depending when I'm asked lol My energy is pretty BLAH right now..my schedule has me all over the place and pretty much running from 6am-9pm every day, I'm typically ready for a nap by noon :o I'm getting my training and cardio session done with as much oomph as I can muster, strength is down which blows but being lean helps make up for it ;-)
 
"Are you starving?"...
Yes, I am hungry...like, tummy grumbling hungry but my cravings aren't as bad as my previous preps. (Ok, lets be real..I'm always hungry, this bitch can eat and prep has nothing to do with it.) Since my diet has been higher in protein, I do think that has helped with keeping me somewhat satiated but at this point, I'd probably eat my arm off if it would fuck up my symmetry.
 
Well, that about sums it up...3 weeks and here weeeeeeeee goooooooooooo...........
 
3 weeks out 
Training: 5 Day split, one body part a day, posing as well.
Diet: Low fats/Moderate carb/High protein; 2gal H2o (sometimes 3!)
Cardio: 20-30min step mill sessions (time varies depending on how many sessions I break it up into)
Supplementation: Champion Nutrition's Multi-V, Omega 3 Fish Oil, Performance BCAA's, ProFlex Advance Joint Support, Liver Cleanse, Muscle Nitro PM, Power Creatine, Power Glutamine, Pure Whey and my crack,ThermoGold (3x a day lol)

 


Monday, June 10, 2013

4 Weeks Out

Seriously. 4 fuckin weeks(or 3wks and 4days, not that I'm counting)...Time is flying! 

The last week has been a bit hectic to say the least. I am a creature of habit and routine and life has thrown me a few curveballs but Imma keep trucking along. 

I checked in with Noel over the weekend...the scale was down another pound, to 134lbs and my pics are definitely tighter/leaner than last week. Now, having said that, I admit that I was a bit disappointed...I guess I was expecting more of a drop on the scale and hoping that my pictures were better. I have a lot of different thoughts and feelings going through my head right now...As the scale drops and I get leaner, I think that I'm not going to be bringing the size that I would like to, then at the same time, I worry that I am still too fat...I won't be bringing the conditioning that I would like to. I look at this competitor and that competitor and Blah, blah fuckin blah....The reality is, whether I wish I were bigger or whatever, I ain't making gains in the next 4wks so I need to stop wasting energy on the woulda, coulda, shoulda..This is the physique I have, this is what I'm working with and no doubt, I will bring MY best.

The mental side of this journey is by far harder than any physical aspect of it. Training, cardio, dieting..it's really a breeze when it comes to keeping your head in the right place. There are days when the biggest hurdle to your success is between your ears.You think you look one way one minute, then totally different the next. Especially for those of us who are a perfectionist..We want bigger, leaner, more more more...It's enough to drive ya loony. Of course, the flip side to that is it's that same perfectionist in me that keeps me so focused and driven..So, ya take the good with the bad lol 

Of course with all that being said, Noel feels I'm in a good place but yet still did make some slight tweaks to my nutrition...Sooooooooo, we'll see how things go from here.  

Anywho....
With just 4wks to go, the to-do list is getting tackled:

*Tanning and make up with LSR is booked! 
*Waiting on my NPC card, then the entry is a go
*Upon reviewing the entry form, WP routines only need to be 60sec (I had originally thought it was 90!) Color me relieved!
*No, I don't have a routine :/
*Doggy sitter is a reserved (Thank you Momma & Daddy!)



4 weeks out   
 *for the love of the glute/ham tie in*

Training: 5 Day split, one body part a day, posing as well.
Diet: Low fats/Moderate carb/High protein; 2gal H2o (sometimes 3!)
Cardio: 20-30min step mill sessions (time varies depending on how many sessions I break it up into)
Supplementation: Champion Nutrition's Multi-V, Omega 3 Fish Oil, Performance BCAA's, ProFlex Advance Joint Support, Liver Cleanse, Muscle Nitro PM, Power Creatine, Power Glutamine, Pure Whey and my crack,ThermoGold (3x a day lol)


Sunday, June 2, 2013

5 Weeks Out

Ok. Down to 5 Weeks
This is when the crazy really starts kickin in....

Overall, things are moving along at a steady pace. I checked in with Noel over the weekend and I was THRILLED with my progress this week. My pictures are showing significant improvement from last week, especially in my lower body (thankyoubabyjesus!). Also, my fascination (yes, fascination NOT obsession) with the scale continues...I dropped a little over a pound this week and I'm sitting at 135lbs even! HOT DAYUM! I never thought I'd see the day where I was excited to be 135lbs lol but I've made incredible progress from last season and now that all the sloppy shit weight I put on over the winter has fallen off, I can SEE all of my work coming together..It's really amazing and part of what makes this process so much fun. 

Random tidbits: 

* I'm running on auto pilot and my days are pretty structured to a T, for some reason lately there keeps being wrenches thrown into my schedule and it's pissing me off. There are only so many hours in the day, I NEED organization!
*Hungry. Yes I am
*Sleep is a luxury for me at this point. I wake up early, go to sleep late and over the last couple of weeks I am lucky if I get 5hrs a night and they are NOT consecutive. 
* Focused. Like, want it so bad I can taste it focused and I'm not talking cake here. 
*I'm sort of hitting a wall if you will..there is the point of prep where nothing is happening, then BOOM! Before you know it, you're 5wks out and the 'to-do' list is a mile fuckin long..One minute I'm chill as can be and the next I'm a fuckin spaz...I need a personal assistant, who works for free lol
*I love my friends. They are awesome <3
*Posing practice NEEDS to become more of a scheduled priority. While I run through it here and there, I need to block out time and just do work. I like the slight tweaks that I've made, but it's not a natural movement for me, so I need to really work on them. 
*Routine...HELP ME!



Ok, I think I about covered all the shit bouncing around in my head...


5 weeks out   
 *the quest for feathered glutes*

Training: 4 Day split/typically 5 on/1 off..moderate and intense/super sets
Diet: Low fats/Moderate carb/High protein; 2gal H2o (sometimes 3!)
Cardio: 20-30min step mill sessions (time varies depending on how many sessions I break it up into)
Supplementation: Champion Nutrition's Multi-V, Omega 3 Fish Oil, Performance BCAA's, ProFlex Advance Joint Support, Liver Cleanse, Muscle Nitro PM, Power Creatine, Power Glutamine, Pure Whey and my crack,ThermoGold (3x a day lol)